ROCK N' ROLL BITCH :)

sometimes i feel like im going to end up loseing larry or end up pushing him away. hes starting to act like he wants nothing to do with me and thats EXACTLY how coty was acting before we broke up.. and ive fallen soo hard for larry that it will seriously crush me if we break up. especially this soong :(

i just dont know what to do anymore. these thoughts keep popping back in my head.. :’(

Kinda bummed and happy..

My baby starts his job today and I’m happy for him but I’m bummed that I’m not going to get to talk to him as much as we usually get to. I’m use to talking to him from when we wake up until we are about to fall asleep and now with his work schedule we will only get to talk and hour maybe 2. Its gunna be really hard on the both of us :( this sucks!!

i know its still early but hes treated me WAY better than coty ever has. he honestly does know how to treat a lady :)

today was just an interesting day..

my ex coty texts me saying hes sorry for everything, he should have never broken up with me, he realized what he lost, he still loves me and wants us to be together and blah blah blah..

like seriously you wait 3wks to say this shit? like come on.. if you were honestly sorry you wouldnt have waited this long. ive moved on. i have a great guy who actually treats me right and respects me and is just overall a gentleman why would i risk loosing him becuz u decided to man up and appologize for what you did. you fucked up and lost someone who was there for you through everything and who stuck by you when you treated them like shit!!

w.e. im a lot happier with out him in my life. and now its time to do things that i want to do and try not to be afraid of the outcomes or the mistakes i make. its my life and i need to start living it!!

sometimes i wish i didnt live in vegas. cuz being under 21 theres not much you can do. and im just sick of all the bullshit here. i kinda wanna move somewhere where not that many ppl know me, so i can start over and not have to worry with all this bullshit.. ugh!! but not having a job,money or a car kinda makes it hard to do that..

blah!! i guess i have to wait!!!

i cant believe i wasted those 7months of my life on that piece of shit!! you sat there feeding me lies making me fall in love with you and then all that time you were sitting there trying to get with your ex who you told me did soo much shit to you when come to find out you did all that shit to her. wow!! i feel so fuckin stupid for believing you and for falling for you..

now i know better next time. you no longer own my heart!!!

Now that I think about it.. I’m glad me and Coty are done. He treated me like shit, made me think everything was my fault, yelled at me over the stupidest shit and so many other things. Like ya I was in love with him but now that we are done and over with I’ve realized I need to find someone who treats me right and not like shit!! Thanks for making me realize this Coty Thompson!!
On to better things :)

I mean ya I miss my ex but I need to be strong and find myself. Becuz who I was before, I was lost I didn’t know what to do. And ya I’m still lost but I need to do what’s best for me. And if that’s means he’s not in the picture anymore than okay. I just have to be strong through all of this. And I think I can do it!